march 26

Crap. The instant i wrote the date i realized i forgot to ask off work for when chris comes home and that mid-april weekend. Awesome.

Im glad i have pretty much no money (after going on a late night juice escapade....i'm down to 2 bucks and 87 cents.)and yet i'm still shopping online. I really really really need a new pair of raingear pants. Two years ago they were lookin pretty short and "broken in" i suppose is a delicate way to put it.... but now...WOW. mind you they do fit, they're just, oh i dunno, 8 inches too short. sweet. plus the vinel is rubbed off the knees and anywhere my harness rubs on it....so basically they serve no purpose. Fabulous. No normally this woudln't be very problematic, HOWEVER i have two regattas quickly approaching and let me tell you, if we flip the boat i WILL freeze to death. Average water temp in may? when sometimes its still snowing? Oh...i dunno, maybe 40 degrees if i'm lucky. In any event, although i do plan to wear a "longie" body glove insted of and one of my cherished "shorties", raingear pants are pretty much a necessity unless may 17 decides to rock my world with some 75 degree weather. So dad. love of mine. check this http://www.pointlomaoutfitting.com/mm5/merchant.mvc?Screen=CTGY&Store_Code=JSGCA&Category_Code=RON

OK! moving right along! i need to step it up with the weight loss. Blah blah keep your coments to yourself, i'm sick of being fat too. But matt, darling, if you put on one more pound i will take it upon my self to start cutting off your body parts that i deem unnessessary. I mean i know i bitched about having tp put ona few inthe first place, but now that it finally gets to come off i'm finding it slow going. SO now im joining the millions of americans in the "race to weight loss"

except im gonna win. whores.

And ok. enough about the facebook status. really. yes i wonder too. but who cares. it's small potatoes.


ok, time to get some work done.

foolproof plan

*names have been changed to protect identities <--- haha just like in readers digest

So the latest-

I'm super bummed about not going to see the hockey game on friday. Why, you ask? Well Amtrack's a group of bitches and because this weekend's spring break and all of the students get kicked out of the dorm, they jacked up the prices....like 220%. Sweet. However! I was able to snag the last few tickets for BF* and me, we're going to chi-town for the day. Not sure what the game plan is beyond that, but we have the whole day to blow and we're creative kids so i'm sure we'll have a blast. Honestly i woudl be perfectly content just walking a ton, maybe getting lost, finding some hole-in-the-wall - who knows.
Spent far too much time on the phone with Jack Sparrow*, i mean really, how long can you talk about nothing? He chitchatted about his plans for this weekend and his lack of motivation to do his english, got nostalgic about a song on the radio ("our"song. oh honey. move on.... i just played dumb and changed the subject) and i sort of jetted around my room doin a quick clean up. I also cleaned out my monster of a purse and really just thought about who i'd rather be on the phone with. ( BF - no suprise there. even listening to 4 second voicemails he leaves has me grinning for half an hour ) CJS is probably my best friend though, so hopefully in time things will be 100% back to normal.
The Protector* called today just to inform me that he and his other half might be free tomorrow night. I'm pretty sure he feels terrible about the fact that they've consistantly been blowing me off the past 2 months - with the exception of lunch last week. Well i miss them both. Hope that the rest of the lunch table, or at least the townies, can make it out too. not Tall Tree*. as much as i miss him, he can feel free to not come. I'm a jerk, whatever.
I have a pretty big exam for psyk tomorrow, we'll see how it goes....which reminds me i really should be studying for that...
Teken*s been on my mind a lot lately, he wants me to visit. We'll see. He's really been a rock lately, andi find that he's the only complete support i've got in regards to my relationship status with BF*. Go figure. OO on that note he's comming home for spring break, and i'm totally psyked.
Hope that Scarlet Begonia's is feeling better soon, i'm so stoked to see her over break and get in some hookah.

So here's to hoping this week flies by without a hiccup, the weekend is going to be the best i've had in a long time. I can't wait to do nothing with him, you have no idea.

love always,
the one starlet ( with the flowers in her hair*)

"there's a light on in Chicgao, and i know i should be home...but all the colors of the street signs - they remind me of the pick up truck out in front of your neighbors house..."

Love, i'm sorry, Our Beach will have to wait.

you always were the boy of a thousand words
so sing to me
-about me-
and i'll promise not to notice

Remember when that camera flashed?
we both smiled so hopelessly
and though honey eyes and sad lips betray
(they always do),
I was faking.

your cheeks are too rosy
like someone pinched them
our famaliar rope-burns
evidence of carelessness and distraction

your right shoe is untied and
your mothers ring is on my favorite finger
you grab my shoulders and
a bold voice and calloused hands plead-
"neither sun nor moon can tear us apart"

you laugh at my wide eyes and crooked smile
i laugh at your bare feet and silly dreams
you have such silly dreams

sand on my cheek clings relentlessly
-the fatal kiss of summer-
and the last day hums its desperate melody
there's no fooling us now

i never imagined it this way